It's been one of those days! My daughter has decided to go through a bratty phase lately. My mom fell down and had to go to the ER. And every 3 seconds my phone or email demanded my attention. And to top it all off, I have had nails on a chalk board pain in my tale bone area. And all I really want to do is curl up with a good book in my jammies and say no to the world.
It is tempting to question God on days like this. Where is God when you feel like you're losing an uphill battle? Where is God when you feel like you are merely surviving your life instead of enjoying it? Where is God? He is right there next to you watching you with love in his heart. I truly believe that! God is there to keep you calm, to keep you going. I know without a doubt that I would not be the fighter I am without His love and grace.
God is in the details on days like today. He keeps me busy with my work so I can't focus on my pain too much. He helps me focus on helping others like my mom who needed me today so I remember what I'm on this earth to do. He helps me focus on my daughter who obviously needs more guidance so she can become an adult I'm proud to call my daughter. God is in the smile on my husband's face when he walks in the door after an equally challenging day at work. God is in the hug I received last night from my friend and fellow mother who knows what I'm facing with my sometimes difficult 5 year old. God is there even when we can't imagine him being part of our chaotic lives. He is here with me and that knowledge keeps me going when I want to give up.
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